Jumping Without Looking…Again

It’s kind of funny how it works, just when you think you’ve been completely abandoned and yet you need a hand to hold more than ever, hands suddenly appear everywhere.  Well, maybe my situation isn’t (wasn’t?) quite that desperate, and the response wasn’t quite that miraculous, but that’s the gist of it.  I’m definitely thankful though.  Makes me feel a little bit better about what I’m thinking of doing.

 I decided to tell a friend about my “plan” that I muttered about in my last post.  And there was nothing but support.  So, I figure I may as well throw it out there.  Here goes:  I’m thinking, well, seriously thinking….maybe even almost 99% sure I’m going to, switch to SAIT next year and take Architectural Technologies.  Because I honestly hate university.  The school part of it at least.  I am not motivated or interested in my courses.  All I think about is how it has absolutely nothing to do with what I want to be doing.

 I think that’s my biggest problem with university.  Granted it’s only the first semester, but I can make my mind up quickly sometimes.  The focus is on learning, but not learning things that will be useful when you actually get a job.  With my current degree I’d have to slog through 2 years of complete bullshit courses before I could even start to do anything related to architecture.  And that kind of pisses me off.  Especially since that’s the “fast-track” way.

Besides, when talking with my parents, they brought up some very true points.  Granted, I’m still reluctant to admit to them.  Such as the fact that I put snowboarding before school this year.  Definitely refused to admit to that before (which is probably what pissed my mom off so much).  But it’s true, if I was really serious about architecture I would’ve gone out east to go to school.  That’s where the good programs are.  Not only did I decide to stay here, but I made up my entire class schedule (including choosing options) based on wanting to snowboard training at least 1 afternoon a week.  Perhaps I subconsciously knew that university wouldn’t be for me?  Who knows, it’s possible.

One of the things I brought up in our conversation was how I didn’t know what I was good at that I enjoyed anymore.  Actually, I’m pretty sure I said there wasn’t anything that I was good at.  And my dad brought up drafting right away.  It’s kind of weird how you forget about the little things sometimes.  Like how much I absolutely loved drafting back in high school.   I can actually remember the first time I did it in junior high, and I loved it even then.  So yeah, I guess there still are things that I’m good at that I enjoy.  They just don’t happen to be right in front of my nose.

And that’s kind of where the whole SAIT bit comes in.  Actually, I’d been thinking about transferring before, but not too seriously.  There was also a bit of pressure from certain people (who I won’t name because they’re really special to me, and they’re just voicing their opinions) to get a university degree and not waste myself on anything else.  Which I’m realizing isn’t right.  Because there’s no point in me getting a degree if I’m not going to be happy with where I end up.

So I’m going to go talk to some counsellors, at U of C and at SAIT, and just make sure I’m making the right decision.  And then (hopefully) I’ll apply.  And go from there.

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So I’m pretty sure I just made one of the stupidest decisions of my life.  And honestly, I just don’t care.  Oh, I probably will later, but not right now.  Anyways, this “stupid decision” was not doing ANY work for my computer science assignment.  So I handed nothing in.  And it gets worse – it’s worth 9% of my mark.

 I’m just completely unmotivated right now.  I found out what GPA I should be aiming for to get into architecture at U of C (3.6), and rather than making me want to buckle down and work, I’m just feeling completely overwhelmed and like I don’t have a shot in hell.  Which of course is making me question if I want to be an architect bad enough.  I’m struggling big time just to make it through my first semester of university (and with only 4 courses!).  How am I supposed to last for 6-8 years?!

I don’t know what I’d do otherwise though.  Like I’m enjoying Art History and Computer Science, but I just don’t want to make the effort to do well.  And that doesn’t exactly gain me anything.

On to the bright side of things though, snowboard season is starting at the end of this week!  I’ve been waiting 7 months for this!  It’s going to be absolutely amazing to get out again.  But I haven’t made a whole bunch of goals for the season yet.  Hmm….may as well right now.  ;-)

 Okay, here goes:
- Front 3 the big booters
- Front/Back 5
- learn how to do those sweet butters
- start doing rails switch again!
- 270 on to rails
- Front/Back 5 in pipe
- learn how to do a proper handplant (no more somersault crap!)

 Looks like I’m going to be busy.  :-p  I can’t wait to get started!