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So I’m pretty sure I just made one of the stupidest decisions of my life.  And honestly, I just don’t care.  Oh, I probably will later, but not right now.  Anyways, this “stupid decision” was not doing ANY work for my computer science assignment.  So I handed nothing in.  And it gets worse – it’s worth 9% of my mark.

 I’m just completely unmotivated right now.  I found out what GPA I should be aiming for to get into architecture at U of C (3.6), and rather than making me want to buckle down and work, I’m just feeling completely overwhelmed and like I don’t have a shot in hell.  Which of course is making me question if I want to be an architect bad enough.  I’m struggling big time just to make it through my first semester of university (and with only 4 courses!).  How am I supposed to last for 6-8 years?!

I don’t know what I’d do otherwise though.  Like I’m enjoying Art History and Computer Science, but I just don’t want to make the effort to do well.  And that doesn’t exactly gain me anything.

On to the bright side of things though, snowboard season is starting at the end of this week!  I’ve been waiting 7 months for this!  It’s going to be absolutely amazing to get out again.  But I haven’t made a whole bunch of goals for the season yet.  Hmm….may as well right now.  ;-)

 Okay, here goes:
- Front 3 the big booters
- Front/Back 5
- learn how to do those sweet butters
- start doing rails switch again!
- 270 on to rails
- Front/Back 5 in pipe
- learn how to do a proper handplant (no more somersault crap!)

 Looks like I’m going to be busy.  :-p  I can’t wait to get started!

Optimistic October

It’s kind of amazing how time always gets away from you.  It was summer last time I blogged, and now, snowboard season starts in a month!

 Obviously the biggest change so far has been starting university.  My take on it: when people said it was hard, they were making a huge understatement.  There is so much to do.  And there just doesn’t seem to be enough time to do it in.  Although a large part of that probably arises from my ability to procrastinate.  I stayed up till 3am one night reading 3 novels – just because I didn’t want to do my philosophy assignment.  Especially since I still had 3 days before it was due.  Retarded decision on my part.  But I’m getting used to making them.  lol.

 Some of the people are awesome though.  Namely Katherine.  haha – that’s right girl, you’re that amazingly awesome.  lol.  I was kind of hoping to find a really close friend when I went to university, but I definitely wasn’t expecting to meet one the very first day of orientation.  If only we could find some more spare time to spend together…

 It’s a learning process, that’s for sure.  I had all these plans, and they’ve pretty much all fallen to ruins within the first three weeks.  I’m not quite sure if my learning methods have changed, or that they just don’t work with the new teaching methods.  Either way, this past week I’ve been trying to make changes.  It’s weird because I fell further behind, and yet I feel way better about everything.  And in some classes seem to be turning around already.

Working at the Business Library has been…interesting.  Not going to lie, I’m taking advantage of the free printing.  Especially since it’s a colour printer.  Free vs minimum 8 cents per page.  lol.  And I’ve got no problem that I’m allowed to do homework when I’m not busy with patrons.  The hardest part has been trying to find stuff I don’t need my laptop for.  The job itself is not exactly challenging though.  I think I’d get bored extremely fast without the homework.  And it’s nowhere near as social as any of my previous jobs.  But oh well, it’s money.

 So I now have two siamese fighting fish – Jengo and Speck.  Jengo was Jessica’s, but I ended up taking him home with me after my visit.  And then, I got Speck through a Facebook ad.  Funny, but true.  They’re both quite entertaining.  Although I do feel guilty since my room can get quite cold at times.   But they’re surviving.  And I got them new bowls, and new plants.  It’s really easy to clean the bowls, so hopefully I’ll be able to do it regularly.  Unlike the aquarium…  Oops.

 Anyways, I’ve decided I should try and start the monthly themes again.  They really helped me focus before.  Hopefully they can do so again.  So Optimistic October.  Basically, the plan is to stay upbeat and positive about school.  That is, after all, the biggest obstacle standing between me and complete zenness.  :-p

 I’m trying to write down some goals – LuluLemon style.  I’ve only got the 1-year stuff filled in so far, but I’ll get the longer term ones in soon.  I hope.   http://www.lululemon.com/culture/goalsetting