Procrastinating

I’m in class…supposed to be working on finishing my house plan…but I’m trying to keep myself entertained while doing anything else.

This probably shouldn’t be the case.  The drawing you see above is not even close to being finished.  I’ve got details to all 4 parts that you can see…and I still need to draw another 5 parts.  All by next Monday.

The big problem is the complete lack of motivation I feel towards completing it.  I mean, if I could just work super hard and finish it, then I could do all my internet browsing and game playing completely guilt-free.  But alas, that point just never penetrates deeply enough into my brain for it to become a reality.

My current “distraction” is trying to find some more blogs to read.  Because I can’t lie, I love reading blogs.  Not informative ones.  The personal ones.  That have character.  And are interesting.  I found a new one today. It’s the blog of Chantel Simmons, who happens to be the author of Stuck in Downward Dog.  Which I happen to highly recommend.

 

I was attempting to find a yoga blog (I don’t necessarily enjoy the ones on yogajournal.com as they’re American, and to be honest, not always that entertaining.)  Anyways, Google managed to come across one of my own posts in the hunt.  It threw me off a bit, as it was on the first page options.  I didn’t know Google rated my blog that highly.

Ooo, I can actually say I know someone who’s engaged.  It might sound strange, but I’m still “young” enough that I don’t have a lot of friends that are at that stage yet.  I know people through Jason that are engaged, or are married.  But this is the first time (at least I think it is) that it’s one of my “own” friends.  Not that we’re close or anything – I haven’t seen her in person in 2 years.  But still.

I absolutely love Arizona Green Tea with Ginseng and Honey and Arizona Red Apple Green Tea with Ginseng.  OMG.  So yummy.  And only $0.99.   For 695 mL.  Which is amazing.  I am attempting to limit myself to only buying one when I go down to the store, otherwise I am prone to buying way too much candy.  So one drink a day I can live with.  It’s even cheaper than Tim’s!

Another procrastination-aid that I have found is iGoogle.  I’ve got it set up with a calendar, some horoscopes, some news highlights, countdown timers, a few games, some comics, a yoga pose-of-the-day, the weather, and some other things.  It’s great.   I highly recommend it.

I must say I am disappointed that Harper is Prime Minister still.  I can’t say I’m surprised, but I was hoping that the majority of Canada would vote the same as me and let the NDP have a crack at being in charge.   Not that I worry overly much about politics.  It just seems that I live in the wrong place – no one I’ve voted for in previous elections has ever won.  Which is only slightly depressing.

So I can officially say I wasted my entire 3 hour class.  And I can’t say I feel guilty.

Uninspired

My trip to San Diego was pretty cool.  I can’t wait to go back.  Next time I want to have my own agenda though.  I’m not such a big fan of letting someone else make all the plans.  True, I didn’t know what there was to do, but I wasn’t super happy about having plans made that didn’t coincide with what little I was hoping to do.

Disneyland turned out to be better than I thought it would be.  Which is impressive, considering I was grumpy and exhausted most of the day.  I’d like to go back one day.  Just to enjoy it.  And to really look around.  It was cool being with people who could take us around to all the top rides (we did about 3 days worth of only 1).  Once again though, I’m not such a big fan of other people’s plans.

Maybe I’m just too much of a control freak?

On the bright side of things, I didn’t get sick of Jason.  For anyone that’s gone on a trip with me, I tend to need alone time around day 2 or 3.  But this time when I wanted time away from our other trip companions, I didn’t want time away from Jason.  I actually think the trip made me feel even closer to him.  I’m not sure how he feels about me though.

I haven’t felt very motivated about anything since I got back though.  If I think about it though, it’s understandable.  I worked 11 hours the day after I got back, the next day I worked 8 and went out for Jill’s birthday, Friday I worked another 8 hours then went to Jason’s, and today I worked another 8 hours.  And none of those shifts went by quickly.  But my room is a mess, and I made a fairly long To Do list today.  The problem is, I’m not really sure when I’m going to get stuff done.  I have some weird shifts this week.  Although, I will theoretically be getting up earlier this week, so perhaps I can get more done during the day (after all, I’ve always been quite productive in the late mornings).

Chapters has some really nice reed diffusers, eye pillows, frames, photo albums, cards, agendas, journals, etc.  I was quite impressed last night…and extremely tempted.  I only got an agenda though, which is something I will actually use.  And I based my decision on function, not solely on price.

A part of me is saying I should’ve gone back to work there.  But then nothing would’ve turned out the same.  And since I can’t change anything, I really shouldn’t worry about it.  For now the thought can simply hold a spot in my head.  After all, who knows what the future will bring?

I have come to the realization that for the most part, I am only working where I am because of the pay, and for one, the lack of effort required, and the other, mainly because of a couple staff members and my resume.  I’m really looking forward to the day when I can find a job that is mentally stimulating, a bit of a challenge, and one that I enjoy. 

I miss…yoga…getting dressed up with my hair and make-up done…doing my make-up…wearing heels all the time…being super photogenic…the days of blogging on Nexopia…Nexopia in general…sleeping well…my clean bedroom…seeing my friends lots…some of my friends that aren’t really friends anymore…having a plan…never crying…looking forward to going to work…being active…texting constantly…Roxie…Jessica…Jason…climbing…spending weekends together…feeling inspired…a lot. 

The camera on my cell is broken.  And the battery runs out way quicker than it used to.  I need to take it in to be fixed, but I don’t have time.

I Am Slowly Going Crazy…

I’ve been so busy, which combined with my lazy time-management skills means I haven’t had the chance to write a blog in…well, a long time. Frankly, I miss it. Even my journal entries have been getting smaller and smaller since it’s still a struggle to get to bed on time. It’s already my bed-time, and I’m making a collage for work and writing this instead. Oops.

The new job is, honestly, not that much fun. It started off well. The people were (and still are) absolutely amazing. But the work isn’t exactly challenging. And I can’t really let my mind wander, since that means I make way too many mistakes. If I can manage to make enough mistakes to waste 100+ pages of paper in one day, I don’t really want to know how many trees would be killed if I didn’t pay attention. The worst part of this whole thing is it’s only the beginning of my 3rd week. I just don’t seem to have much staying power lately.

My room is quite messy again. And all my budget plans have yet to be put in action. This hasn’t been a very productive year so far. I’m learning lots about what I don’t want, but that seems to be it. Hopefully I can slowly pull things back on track over the next couple of months. And somehow stay semi-motivated at work. And with snowboarding.

But I can only push back getting ready for bed so long. Besides, I’ve got something to look forward to tomorrow: RIVERDANCE! with KATHERINE! I’m so excited. So the sooner I sleep, the sooner I can go. :-)

Ciao for now!

Off to a Good Start

It’s day 6 of the new year, and I feel like I’m doing pretty well in regards to my resolutions.  Actually, I’m feeling pretty good about the amount of things I’ve managed to accomplish so far.  Getting off to a good start is always a nice bonus, and helps keep me motivated.

I’ve yet to write my “official” budget post, but I think it’s going to be Get Organized January.  So far I’ve organized my receipts, and got the supplies to start a new filing system (which technically doesn’t involve filing, per se).    I’m also coming up with ideas of what I need to save for, and how I want my budget to work.  Perhaps I should be looking for a slightly irregular approach, as that seems to be when I succeed best at other things.

As for my speeding,  I’m doing really well at not doing it.  :-)  Not much else to be said.

That leads to the fact that I got my brother to wash Putt-Putt for me today.   I was going to go to a drive-through car wash, but the line was too long, and then it was closed.  So we went to a do-it-yourself one.  And I asked, and he did.  No complaints from me, especially since he can do it faster than I can with the same results.  Not quite sure why, but I’ll take it.

I’ve yet to decide whether Putt-Putt is a guy or girl though.  To me, cars are girls.  But the name doesn’t make me think so.  Maybe Putt-Putt is an “it”?  My next car is going to be a girl though.

As for the self-improvement portion,  I printed off my January goals check-list (and updated it).  I’m not scoring 100% or anything, but I’m doing way better now than I was back in October when I started the check-list.  And I know what I need to work on, which is half the battle.

I also started my move out list today.  Nothing too detailed, but the plan was basically to start the file.   So I’ve got different categories, like: kitchen, bedroom, bathroom, miscellaneous, etc.  The plan is to basically go through my (parent’s) house from top to bottom and write down everything I think I will need for myself.  And then check off what I have already.  I’ve got a lot of the big things, but I know there’s going to be tons of little random things (like a can opener, tape measure, screwdriver, measuring spoons, silverware organizer…).

So I can honestly say that I’m not as big of a candy fan as I used to be.  I bought $12 worth the other day, and it’s been 3 nights, and I’ve still got stuff left.  That would’ve been gone within 2 hours back in the day.  Definitely a good thing.  I’m eating more healthy foods now too.  Still no where near what I should be, but a little improvement is better than nothing.  And I do need to acquire a taste for a lot of things.

Without really realizing it, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about snowboarding, and just how important it really is to me.   And honestly, it’s nowhere near important as it was last year.  I’m not even sure how many competitions I’m going to do.  It’s just not a priority anymore.  I still love it (don’t get me wrong on that).  But there are other things I want to do in my spare time now.  I don’t think I’m really saddened by this development, although I am a little bit surprised.  This means I probably won’t be planning on buying any new gear this season, and that ultimately affects how I budget.

I’ve been attempting to clean up my bedroom a little bit every day now.   In some way, shape or form.  Like today I went through a bunch of my clothing, and got rid of tons!  And I’m moving things off my desk to their proper place.  Still lots to do, but I feel way better about it already.  I’ve collected a lot of junk over the years, but I’m getting more critical about what I keep.  I’d like to think that this attitude will stick with me when I go shopping for new things now.  But only time will tell with that…

Katherine and I went to yoga for the first time in 2008 on Saturday morning.  The 8am class too.  It was really fun – the instructor left a lot of time for playing around with handstand and shoulderstand.  I’m looking forward to going to more of his classes because he’s really helpful and encouraging.  I think that a combination of fun, playful classes and structured classes will be really great.  But I need to make sure I set some money aside for my studio passes.

I bought this gorgeous blue scarf the other day.  And it’s so soft.  But it sheds like fricking crazy!!!  Whenever I wear it, I end up covered in fuzz.  And I mean covered.  Today I tried to put it in the dryer with some tennis balls.  The tennis balls (and lint thingy) came out covered, as I expected, but the scarf is still shedding.  I’ve got no clue how to make it stop.  So if anyone has ANY ideas, please pass them my way.  Because I really love this scarf.

Jumping Without Looking…Again

It’s kind of funny how it works, just when you think you’ve been completely abandoned and yet you need a hand to hold more than ever, hands suddenly appear everywhere.  Well, maybe my situation isn’t (wasn’t?) quite that desperate, and the response wasn’t quite that miraculous, but that’s the gist of it.  I’m definitely thankful though.  Makes me feel a little bit better about what I’m thinking of doing.

 I decided to tell a friend about my “plan” that I muttered about in my last post.  And there was nothing but support.  So, I figure I may as well throw it out there.  Here goes:  I’m thinking, well, seriously thinking….maybe even almost 99% sure I’m going to, switch to SAIT next year and take Architectural Technologies.  Because I honestly hate university.  The school part of it at least.  I am not motivated or interested in my courses.  All I think about is how it has absolutely nothing to do with what I want to be doing.

 I think that’s my biggest problem with university.  Granted it’s only the first semester, but I can make my mind up quickly sometimes.  The focus is on learning, but not learning things that will be useful when you actually get a job.  With my current degree I’d have to slog through 2 years of complete bullshit courses before I could even start to do anything related to architecture.  And that kind of pisses me off.  Especially since that’s the “fast-track” way.

Besides, when talking with my parents, they brought up some very true points.  Granted, I’m still reluctant to admit to them.  Such as the fact that I put snowboarding before school this year.  Definitely refused to admit to that before (which is probably what pissed my mom off so much).  But it’s true, if I was really serious about architecture I would’ve gone out east to go to school.  That’s where the good programs are.  Not only did I decide to stay here, but I made up my entire class schedule (including choosing options) based on wanting to snowboard training at least 1 afternoon a week.  Perhaps I subconsciously knew that university wouldn’t be for me?  Who knows, it’s possible.

One of the things I brought up in our conversation was how I didn’t know what I was good at that I enjoyed anymore.  Actually, I’m pretty sure I said there wasn’t anything that I was good at.  And my dad brought up drafting right away.  It’s kind of weird how you forget about the little things sometimes.  Like how much I absolutely loved drafting back in high school.   I can actually remember the first time I did it in junior high, and I loved it even then.  So yeah, I guess there still are things that I’m good at that I enjoy.  They just don’t happen to be right in front of my nose.

And that’s kind of where the whole SAIT bit comes in.  Actually, I’d been thinking about transferring before, but not too seriously.  There was also a bit of pressure from certain people (who I won’t name because they’re really special to me, and they’re just voicing their opinions) to get a university degree and not waste myself on anything else.  Which I’m realizing isn’t right.  Because there’s no point in me getting a degree if I’m not going to be happy with where I end up.

So I’m going to go talk to some counsellors, at U of C and at SAIT, and just make sure I’m making the right decision.  And then (hopefully) I’ll apply.  And go from there.

#*%@

#*%@

So I’m pretty sure I just made one of the stupidest decisions of my life.  And honestly, I just don’t care.  Oh, I probably will later, but not right now.  Anyways, this “stupid decision” was not doing ANY work for my computer science assignment.  So I handed nothing in.  And it gets worse – it’s worth 9% of my mark.

 I’m just completely unmotivated right now.  I found out what GPA I should be aiming for to get into architecture at U of C (3.6), and rather than making me want to buckle down and work, I’m just feeling completely overwhelmed and like I don’t have a shot in hell.  Which of course is making me question if I want to be an architect bad enough.  I’m struggling big time just to make it through my first semester of university (and with only 4 courses!).  How am I supposed to last for 6-8 years?!

I don’t know what I’d do otherwise though.  Like I’m enjoying Art History and Computer Science, but I just don’t want to make the effort to do well.  And that doesn’t exactly gain me anything.

On to the bright side of things though, snowboard season is starting at the end of this week!  I’ve been waiting 7 months for this!  It’s going to be absolutely amazing to get out again.  But I haven’t made a whole bunch of goals for the season yet.  Hmm….may as well right now.  ;-)

 Okay, here goes:
- Front 3 the big booters
- Front/Back 5
- learn how to do those sweet butters
- start doing rails switch again!
- 270 on to rails
- Front/Back 5 in pipe
- learn how to do a proper handplant (no more somersault crap!)

 Looks like I’m going to be busy.  :-p  I can’t wait to get started!

WTF?

Somehow it managed to escape my notice that I’m not registered in a degree!!  Not quite sure how that one got by me, but I’m not too happy.  Just one more thing to take care of this week.

 And I’m slowly beginning to realize that it isn’t just a lack of motivation to do with my classes, but a complete lack of interest in them.  I like 2 out of my 5 classes right now.  Pretty pathetic by my standards.

 So, I managed to scratch my eye.  According to the optometrist there’s a chunk missing.  :-p  I’m just so talented.  I also managed to peel off a layer of the film that covers the eye as well.  Needless to say, I haven’t been wearing my contacts recently.  Which has led me to think about getting new frames (and updating the prescription of the lenses).   Wearing glasses isn’t as bad as I remembered….

 And I now have purple hair!  Not neon purple or anything, it’s more like a purple-black colour.  I’m stoked on it.  And I did one of my multi-coloured dye jobs again.  Using a single colour.  I am talented.  It’s purple-black in the front, and a bit more red towards the back.

 But I really should be getting to the homework that I just keep pushing back…

 Ciao for now!

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