Under-appreciated

The title pretty much says it all.  Today was such a bad day (and by today, I’m referring to work, not after work).  I couldn’t seem to do anything right in anyone else’s eyes.  Extremely frustrating.

I’m thinking it might be time to move on.  Even though it was only a week ago or so that I decided to stay.  But nightmares and stress just don’t really seem a good trade-off.  Because they bring a lot of bad stuff with them.  And I don’t need crap in my life.

However, my parents are still super supportive (in their own ways).  And my bro and I are close despite never seeing each other.  Jess is essentially back in my life.  Jill has always been there.  Jason just gets more amazing with every day – and I’m not sure I tell him that.

My Sleep Schedule should be thrown out at this point.  It’s not happening, and probably never will at this point.  I’m just not committed enough.  Or something like that.

Camping this weekend!  Montreal next weekend!  Golden the weekend after!

14 days down…3 days to go.  Way too many days to work without a day off.  I should stop torturing myself in the future.  NO needs to get a higher usage rate in my vocabulary.

So Sleepy

My body is definitely rebelling against my Sleep Schedule.  Last night I couldn’t fall asleep until after 1am.  And I went to bed at midnight.  Then I woke up at 4:45am, and couldn’t fall back asleep.  In fact, I was wide awake.  I watched some tv, had a shower, went to the HuskyMart for milk, and ate breakfast.  All before 7am.  Then I decided to try to get a little bit more sleep before work since my energy levels were beginning to slowly drain.  Pretty much as soon as I got in bed, I got the chills and felt nauseous.  And I didn’t actually fall back asleep until after 9am.  But I slept till about 1pm, so that helped a lot.  I’m just not super stoked on how unwilling my body is to co-operate.  I’m thinking I’m going to try Jason’s suggestion now:  go to bed when I feel tired, but get up earlier no matter what time I go to bed.  Hopefully my body will work with that.  If not…I’m open to suggestions.

I think another problem might be that I’m feeling anxious about work.  Because I’m constantly having nightmares about it.  The weird thing is, the nightmares are about situations that I honestly feel comfortable in at work.  The stuff that is actually stressing me out doesn’t even present itself in my nightmares.  I wish I knew why I am unable to let go of work once I leave.

So Jason is napping…again.  He seriously is like a cat.  I’ve learned to plan for it.  Hence why I’m blogging right now.  And I’ve got a couple books, and a magazine.  I should wake him up soon though, my work schedule means we don’t get to see each other as much as we used to in the winter/spring.  Which sucks.  I’ve got my fingers crossed that we’ll have more time again once school starts.  I guess it just depends what I decide to do about work.