Uninspired

My trip to San Diego was pretty cool.  I can’t wait to go back.  Next time I want to have my own agenda though.  I’m not such a big fan of letting someone else make all the plans.  True, I didn’t know what there was to do, but I wasn’t super happy about having plans made that didn’t coincide with what little I was hoping to do.

Disneyland turned out to be better than I thought it would be.  Which is impressive, considering I was grumpy and exhausted most of the day.  I’d like to go back one day.  Just to enjoy it.  And to really look around.  It was cool being with people who could take us around to all the top rides (we did about 3 days worth of only 1).  Once again though, I’m not such a big fan of other people’s plans.

Maybe I’m just too much of a control freak?

On the bright side of things, I didn’t get sick of Jason.  For anyone that’s gone on a trip with me, I tend to need alone time around day 2 or 3.  But this time when I wanted time away from our other trip companions, I didn’t want time away from Jason.  I actually think the trip made me feel even closer to him.  I’m not sure how he feels about me though.

I haven’t felt very motivated about anything since I got back though.  If I think about it though, it’s understandable.  I worked 11 hours the day after I got back, the next day I worked 8 and went out for Jill’s birthday, Friday I worked another 8 hours then went to Jason’s, and today I worked another 8 hours.  And none of those shifts went by quickly.  But my room is a mess, and I made a fairly long To Do list today.  The problem is, I’m not really sure when I’m going to get stuff done.  I have some weird shifts this week.  Although, I will theoretically be getting up earlier this week, so perhaps I can get more done during the day (after all, I’ve always been quite productive in the late mornings).

Chapters has some really nice reed diffusers, eye pillows, frames, photo albums, cards, agendas, journals, etc.  I was quite impressed last night…and extremely tempted.  I only got an agenda though, which is something I will actually use.  And I based my decision on function, not solely on price.

A part of me is saying I should’ve gone back to work there.  But then nothing would’ve turned out the same.  And since I can’t change anything, I really shouldn’t worry about it.  For now the thought can simply hold a spot in my head.  After all, who knows what the future will bring?

I have come to the realization that for the most part, I am only working where I am because of the pay, and for one, the lack of effort required, and the other, mainly because of a couple staff members and my resume.  I’m really looking forward to the day when I can find a job that is mentally stimulating, a bit of a challenge, and one that I enjoy. 

I miss…yoga…getting dressed up with my hair and make-up done…doing my make-up…wearing heels all the time…being super photogenic…the days of blogging on Nexopia…Nexopia in general…sleeping well…my clean bedroom…seeing my friends lots…some of my friends that aren’t really friends anymore…having a plan…never crying…looking forward to going to work…being active…texting constantly…Roxie…Jessica…Jason…climbing…spending weekends together…feeling inspired…a lot. 

The camera on my cell is broken.  And the battery runs out way quicker than it used to.  I need to take it in to be fixed, but I don’t have time.

Excitement Arrives!

OMG!!! I’m going to be on a plane headed for L.A. in 18 1/2 hours.  It basically started to hit me about 2 hours ago.  Now I’m never going to be able to sleep.  Right now I’m coming up with all my lists (info for my parents, packing list, etc).  Tomorrow I am going to get up, pack, get waxed, go to the bank, then come home, shower, finish packing, and go to Jay’s.  Then it’s off to Chris and Lani’s, then off to his dad’s, then off to the airport.  Very round-about, but we shall get there eventually.  It’s basically just taking the fewest amount of vehicles possible, for the least amount of gas possible.  If that makes any sense at all.

Five Good Minutes

I miss Nexopia.  I spent so much time being creative with my profile design.  It was like a personal challenge to constantly update it.  There’s a part of me that wants to keep updating my profile, but then again, no one ever looks at it.  So is there a point?

To be fair though, I think the question should be, do I have the time?  Because not many people read my blog on a regular basis, and yet I’m still trying to write regularly (again).

I bought some new cleaning products.  Method’s Daily Shower and Biodegradable Cleansing Wipes.  I find that the older I get, the more organized and cleaner I get.  So I’m trying to make the cleaning process easier for myself.  Really, less time means a lot.

I love my new pens – Zebra Sarasa retractable gel.  They don’t smudge, and yet write super smoothly as gel pens usually do.  Plus, they’ve made out of like 80% post-consumer recycled materials.  Who doesn’t love being environmentally friendly?

San Diego on Friday!!!!

Now I need to go to bed.  I’m actually feeling sleepy.  Which means by the time I’m done washing my face, brushing my teeth, and writing in my journal, I will probably be wide awake again.  One can hope though.