Fickle

It’s been an interesting week so far.  I say that because there have been days I love my program, days where I hated it (and while I didn’t contemplate quitting, I did consider pursuing a different career after finishing), days where I felt smart, days where I felt like a complete idiot, times when I wanted to work hard, and times when I wanted nothing other than to relax.

I suppose that’s pretty normal, but it’s somewhat draining.  And it doesn’t help that I’m not doing so well with the going to bed earlier, so the getting up earlier isn’t working so well either.

I’m making friends, which is awesome.  But I’m also spending way too much money on food, snacks, and drinks.  And that’s not so awesome.  I’ve packed a lunch every day, but it just doesn’t seem appetizing when lunch-time rolls around.  And then today I should’ve just gone home (as planned) for dinner.  Instead I asked Jay if he wanted to go for wings, and then we ended up going to Chili’s and I personally spent $50 on the meal (Jay ended up eating some leftovers while waiting for me, so he didn’t really eat anything at the restaurant).

I haven’t gone any clothing or shoe shopping sprees since Montreal though, so that has to count for something.

Change Is On It’s Way

I have had “post a blog” on my To Do List for the past month.  I managed to get one entry up a couple weeks ago, but that’s pretty pathetic to my mind.  Perhaps I just have my expectations set too high, so I don’t even make an attempt.  That’s probably what it is actually – I always feel like I’m not putting forth my best effort if my post is shorter than 5 paragraphs or so.

This whole summer has been about change though, so I think changing my attitude towards blogging is easy enough to do.  Now I just want to post more often, with no expectations about length or content.  I’m also thinking I might use my cell phone to take pictures throughout the day (when it makes sense to), and upload those.  Just for something different.  Plus I’m thinking I need to post a link on my Facebook and Nexopia pages every time I post.  Having readers motivates me more.

I must say this is one of my better summers overall in terms of spending money (or in this case, not spending money).  It’s not that I’m not buying stuff, because I still am, I’m just a bit more selective.  So I usually get stuff that I will actually use.  And I’ve become much more dedicated about making up a list before I go.  Not that a list stops me from browsing and getting more than I need, but it does tend to minimize it a bit.

I’m also switching my credit cards around.  Because I want cards that have rewards that actually benefit me.  This was prompted when my CIBC Visa informed me the Shoppers Optimum Points option was being replaced by the Dividend/Cash Back option.  I don’t exactly use my card enough to get enough money back for it to be any use.  So I’ve gotten a Visa through Citizens Bank.  With every purchase, money is donated to a charity, and I earn points which can later be turned into yet another donation (and a tax receipt for myself).  That just makes way more sense to myself.  Now I’m trying to switch my BMO Mastercard with Airmiles for a Canadian Tire Mastercard so I can potentially get a free oil change a year instead of nothing with my Airmiles.  2 years, and there’s very little I can get with my points.

I miss doing my make-up differently everyday, and doing my hair.  Lately it’s just been some mascara and powder, and my hair up in a ponytail.  Exact same everyday.  I was putting a bit more effort into my make-up on the weekends, but I’ve been slacking off there too.  This is something else I want to change.  I’m going to make the effort to do one or the other, if not both.  It makes me feel good about myself.  Yea, I can feel good without them, but when you’re having a bad day, every little bit helps.

 

I had the day off work today, so I was actually able to get a lot accomplished.  It feels pretty good overall.  I’ve noticed I’m getting a lot more organized the older I get.  My room no longer has a huge pile in the middle.  I’ll put stuff on the floor sometimes, but it’s because I’d rather put it there than not put it away properly.  I also notice that when I feel stressed about something, any mess drives me absolutely bonkers and all I want to do is clean.

I managed to clean my fishes’ bowls tonight.  Well, to be honest I just changed the water.  Whenever I clean it, the chemical I add to neutralize the water makes the water go all murky.  And the fish make lots of bubbles that kind of crust on the top.  It’s very weird.  So essentially, I need to clean the bowls, put the water with the chemical in it for a day, and then put fresh water in so the fish don’t die.  Although they are pretty hardy fish.  They have to be with me.

Tonight is the first night of my Sleep Schedule.   I had to come up with something to help me prepare for 8am classes in the fall.  While the 8am part may not sound so bad, 1) I’m a night owl, and 2) I’m going to have to get up at 5:30am so I have time to get ready and catch the train.  But I’m not going to complain too much since I have no more than 3 classes a day, and I’m off by or before 3pm 3 days a week.

Now I think everyone who has read all of this should make me super happy and leave a comment (you don’t need an account or anything.)  Please?!

Nothing Special

I don’t really have anything to write about.  I just haven’t posted an entry in a while, and figured I should probably try to change that.  Most likely I just have writer’s block – even my personal journal entries are very short and don’t really talk about anything.

So there’s a surprise in the works.  Not saying who it’s for, what I’m doing or anything like that.  But I’m kind of excited.  Hopefully I don’t let anything slip.

I have a stupid cold right now.  I can’t seem to shake it.  And it’s making me slightly miserable.  Just because it’s so annoying.  Especially when I start a sneezing fit.

I want to go shopping, but I need to save my money.  For many reasons.  Although not having any guaranteed hours at my current job (last week I only got 3 hours!) is definitely a big one.  It’s actually kind of hard restraining myself sometimes – there are so many great things out right now.  So that’s why I’m looking for another job.  Wish me luck!

The Hills Season Finale is on tonight.  I’m so disappointed.  There won’t be any new episodes until the next season airs in August (I think…it might be later).  It’s going to be torture.  I absolutely love The Hills.  I know I’ll find other shows to watch (actually I’m especially into What Not to Wear, and 10 Years Younger, and Celeb Rehab, and I Know My Kids A Star…the list goes on…right now) but they just aren’t going to be the same.

I’m really excited for the Sex and the City movie to come out.  I never really followed the TV show, but I love watching it whenever it’s on.  And I’m super excited to see all the fashion.  May sound silly, but it’s in the reviews as being great.  So why not?!

But I’ve run out of stuff so say.  So that’s all for this time.