#48

Camping this weekend was pretty awesome.  I ended up sleeping 12 hours last night!  And I had an hour nap yesterday, and a 2 hour nap today.  So it’s safe to say I’m not feeling super tired.  And my sleep schedule might actually be semi-back-on-track.  Yay!!

This morning we got woken up at 7am by horses (we were camping in a pasture).  I’m not complaining at all!  It was awesome, and definitely started off my day on a good note.

They came right through our campsite.  And some of them were pretty friendly too.

The one I’m petting above got into our trail mix.  And went after our bread, a can of coke, and some chocolates too!  We were able to get those back though.

Saturday we did some yoga.  I’m super impressed with how much Jay’s improved since we first did yoga together.  He’s really into right now, and it’s showing.  On the other hand, I am so far from where I used to be (and not in the right direction!).  Although, if I treat it in a true yogic manner, it should simply be about acceptance (and perhaps a tiny bite of humble-pie).  We shall see though.

Under-appreciated

The title pretty much says it all.  Today was such a bad day (and by today, I’m referring to work, not after work).  I couldn’t seem to do anything right in anyone else’s eyes.  Extremely frustrating.

I’m thinking it might be time to move on.  Even though it was only a week ago or so that I decided to stay.  But nightmares and stress just don’t really seem a good trade-off.  Because they bring a lot of bad stuff with them.  And I don’t need crap in my life.

However, my parents are still super supportive (in their own ways).  And my bro and I are close despite never seeing each other.  Jess is essentially back in my life.  Jill has always been there.  Jason just gets more amazing with every day – and I’m not sure I tell him that.

My Sleep Schedule should be thrown out at this point.  It’s not happening, and probably never will at this point.  I’m just not committed enough.  Or something like that.

Camping this weekend!  Montreal next weekend!  Golden the weekend after!

14 days down…3 days to go.  Way too many days to work without a day off.  I should stop torturing myself in the future.  NO needs to get a higher usage rate in my vocabulary.

#34

I was tired around 11pm last night.  Tonight, it’s 11:20pm, and I’m still wide awake.  Just when I was thinking I might be wrong about my body not adjusting to the new sleep schedule.

All I seem to talk about now is my silly Sleep Schedule.  Meh.

Work went really well today.  Which is awesome.  I still find the library rather uneventful – it’s just not busy enough.

Hopefully tomorrow I can do some make-up.  Which means I should probably get to bed so I can get up.  Urgh.

So does anyone else want to start up a blog, or already have one I don’t know about?  I like reading them as well.  Comment if you have a link for me.  :-)  Or even if you don’t.

So Sleepy

My body is definitely rebelling against my Sleep Schedule.  Last night I couldn’t fall asleep until after 1am.  And I went to bed at midnight.  Then I woke up at 4:45am, and couldn’t fall back asleep.  In fact, I was wide awake.  I watched some tv, had a shower, went to the HuskyMart for milk, and ate breakfast.  All before 7am.  Then I decided to try to get a little bit more sleep before work since my energy levels were beginning to slowly drain.  Pretty much as soon as I got in bed, I got the chills and felt nauseous.  And I didn’t actually fall back asleep until after 9am.  But I slept till about 1pm, so that helped a lot.  I’m just not super stoked on how unwilling my body is to co-operate.  I’m thinking I’m going to try Jason’s suggestion now:  go to bed when I feel tired, but get up earlier no matter what time I go to bed.  Hopefully my body will work with that.  If not…I’m open to suggestions.

I think another problem might be that I’m feeling anxious about work.  Because I’m constantly having nightmares about it.  The weird thing is, the nightmares are about situations that I honestly feel comfortable in at work.  The stuff that is actually stressing me out doesn’t even present itself in my nightmares.  I wish I knew why I am unable to let go of work once I leave.

So Jason is napping…again.  He seriously is like a cat.  I’ve learned to plan for it.  Hence why I’m blogging right now.  And I’ve got a couple books, and a magazine.  I should wake him up soon though, my work schedule means we don’t get to see each other as much as we used to in the winter/spring.  Which sucks.  I’ve got my fingers crossed that we’ll have more time again once school starts.  I guess it just depends what I decide to do about work.

Post #30

My title is unimaginative.  And for once, I am completely accepting of that fact.

I was reminded of a very important fact that alters my Sleep Schedule: it usually takes me half hour to fall asleep after I turn my lights out.  So until I can figure out how to change that, I need to factor that in and basically go to bed an hour before it’s time according to the schedule.  This way I can write in my journal, and get a little bit of reading in.

I get so sick of working at Pier 1 sometimes.  I just see things differently from other people, so what I consider a mess, they consider organization.

Plus I wouldn’t buy a lot of Pier 1 product myself, which means I’m not always excited about selling it.

(Yes, I edited my original post.  I have reasons)

I didn’t get around to taking any pictures today.  And I think that’s going to happen a lot at first.  So I’m just going to put up one of my favourites from the hike Jason and I went on this past weekend.

Change Is On It’s Way

I have had “post a blog” on my To Do List for the past month.  I managed to get one entry up a couple weeks ago, but that’s pretty pathetic to my mind.  Perhaps I just have my expectations set too high, so I don’t even make an attempt.  That’s probably what it is actually – I always feel like I’m not putting forth my best effort if my post is shorter than 5 paragraphs or so.

This whole summer has been about change though, so I think changing my attitude towards blogging is easy enough to do.  Now I just want to post more often, with no expectations about length or content.  I’m also thinking I might use my cell phone to take pictures throughout the day (when it makes sense to), and upload those.  Just for something different.  Plus I’m thinking I need to post a link on my Facebook and Nexopia pages every time I post.  Having readers motivates me more.

I must say this is one of my better summers overall in terms of spending money (or in this case, not spending money).  It’s not that I’m not buying stuff, because I still am, I’m just a bit more selective.  So I usually get stuff that I will actually use.  And I’ve become much more dedicated about making up a list before I go.  Not that a list stops me from browsing and getting more than I need, but it does tend to minimize it a bit.

I’m also switching my credit cards around.  Because I want cards that have rewards that actually benefit me.  This was prompted when my CIBC Visa informed me the Shoppers Optimum Points option was being replaced by the Dividend/Cash Back option.  I don’t exactly use my card enough to get enough money back for it to be any use.  So I’ve gotten a Visa through Citizens Bank.  With every purchase, money is donated to a charity, and I earn points which can later be turned into yet another donation (and a tax receipt for myself).  That just makes way more sense to myself.  Now I’m trying to switch my BMO Mastercard with Airmiles for a Canadian Tire Mastercard so I can potentially get a free oil change a year instead of nothing with my Airmiles.  2 years, and there’s very little I can get with my points.

I miss doing my make-up differently everyday, and doing my hair.  Lately it’s just been some mascara and powder, and my hair up in a ponytail.  Exact same everyday.  I was putting a bit more effort into my make-up on the weekends, but I’ve been slacking off there too.  This is something else I want to change.  I’m going to make the effort to do one or the other, if not both.  It makes me feel good about myself.  Yea, I can feel good without them, but when you’re having a bad day, every little bit helps.

 

I had the day off work today, so I was actually able to get a lot accomplished.  It feels pretty good overall.  I’ve noticed I’m getting a lot more organized the older I get.  My room no longer has a huge pile in the middle.  I’ll put stuff on the floor sometimes, but it’s because I’d rather put it there than not put it away properly.  I also notice that when I feel stressed about something, any mess drives me absolutely bonkers and all I want to do is clean.

I managed to clean my fishes’ bowls tonight.  Well, to be honest I just changed the water.  Whenever I clean it, the chemical I add to neutralize the water makes the water go all murky.  And the fish make lots of bubbles that kind of crust on the top.  It’s very weird.  So essentially, I need to clean the bowls, put the water with the chemical in it for a day, and then put fresh water in so the fish don’t die.  Although they are pretty hardy fish.  They have to be with me.

Tonight is the first night of my Sleep Schedule.   I had to come up with something to help me prepare for 8am classes in the fall.  While the 8am part may not sound so bad, 1) I’m a night owl, and 2) I’m going to have to get up at 5:30am so I have time to get ready and catch the train.  But I’m not going to complain too much since I have no more than 3 classes a day, and I’m off by or before 3pm 3 days a week.

Now I think everyone who has read all of this should make me super happy and leave a comment (you don’t need an account or anything.)  Please?!